2004-2009,我曾有過5年的重訓經驗,但因為一句話,我放棄了!
在那個女性重訓不時興的時代,我卻對重訓上癮到一日不練就感到不開心!
某日在一場朋友的聚會裡,一位男友人當著所有人的面對我說:你看不出天天在運動的樣子!怎麼這麼壯!
我永遠忘不了當時的我感到的羞愧,因為我不是一般社會眼光下,運動=纖細!
年輕而太在意別人眼光的我,一氣之下放棄了重訓,十幾年來只做有氧!瘦是瘦了,但身材沒有曲線,而且只要多吃就會胖!
2019年突然其來的一場大病,讓我重新審視自己的健康!為了讓自己可以更舒適地迎接,即將到來的更年期,並達到防止骨質疏鬆,老了不用被推出去曬太陽的夢想,我,回歸了重訓的懷抱。
10個月以來,看著自己從難以承受五公斤的臀推,到現在80公斤沒問題。從害怕空槓的臥推,到現在可以推到40公斤。槓鈴深蹲60、相撲硬舉80⋯⋯。
我在一次又一次的痛苦的訓練中,重新回到我熱愛的重訓懷抱,啊~ 沒錯,這是我曾經深愛過的感覺!
但更讓我迷戀不已的是,在克服一次次難以承受的重量裡,慢慢地找回我對自己人生的掌控權、以及內心深處不可思議的平靜感!
現在的我,快45歲了,沒有什麼遠大的身體目標,只想靠自己努力,安然地迎接更年期,最最最希望的是,老了也不用被推出去曬太陽,或輪椅被停在娃娃機前面七小時!(最近可怕的老人看護新聞)!
然後最令我感到驕傲的,不是我重訓的成績進步了多少,而是,我現在已有勇氣,去擁抱並接納我創造出來的樣子。
我是Vita, 我選擇我要的樣子,不是老公、父母、親人、朋友、同事或是這個社會!而是我自己!
當你勇敢做自己
愛將開始伴隨你💙
Back in 2004˜2009, I used to love weights training so much that I just had to workout everyday, otherwise, I would feel extremely uncomfortable! Well, you can call me “gym junky”!
But I had given that all up due to one comment from a male friend. He said “YOU DON’T LOOK LIKE YOU WORKOUT EVERYDAY”! And he said in front of lots of people.
I was so embarrassed and felt absolutely humiliated. I was so stupid to let his comments effect me, therefore, I GAVE UP strength training! Because I was getting so huge that I DID NOT fit in to the society’s eyes, thin is prettier!
FXXK that, it’s I would say that now! But back then, I was too young to understand that no body can decide what I should look like or feel!
11 years has passed, a recovery from my sudden illness had helped me to realise, my healthy comes first and by health, I meant both body and mind.
So, I return to my love, weight training! I have to say, even I had abandoned it for 11 years, it still embraces me as it knows how much I love this sport!
No body has any rights to judge what others body image are like, absolutely NOT. But more importantly, you should always stand strong to fight & protect for your own happiness instead of let anyone decide what you should look like or feel!
Be brave, be yourself, love will follow.
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